Confining Chaos

This is the last abstract I made before 2013 ended. Just like any December of the past years, my mind took a dive into a chaos mode. My only resort is to confine, albeit poorly, the turmoil within.  Now that we are halfway of the first month of the new year, it is my fervent hope that I will be able to successfully soothe the little child within.

Worm's Eye View

When I hit rock bottom, I had an epiphany about friendship; that it is a relationship built on trust and earned not by a click on the mouse, as in Facebook. True friends may force you to see your mistakes yet, they stick around, even if you are being a sniveling pain in the ass. Most importantly, friends administer tough love in a kind and compassionate way, and not by an acerbic tongue.

It is ironic that I only understand the facets of friendship when I was at the lowest point of my life. Perhaps, from my view on the ground, I had a sneak peek on a person's mind. But, I'd like to think that someone has pointed me the reflection of the sky, that there's no other way for me but up.

And that someone are my best friends.

Pulling Myself Up

My life has taken me into a different direction the past years. I can say I had reached rock bottom a few times. Much as I'd like to say I have hit the ground running, I know I mostly crashed and burnt. Since I led a very private life, not many have known. And I'd like to keep it that way.

There are two things I learned from that plunge. One, it is very much tempting to stay at the bottom, to succumb to self-pity and self-loathing. Two, there is always a light beyond the web of negativity.

Even if it is merely a flicker, it is enough of a beacon to guide me through, out of my misery.